Something Beautiful

Recently I was driving down the highway headed towards my sisters house. I’d had a terrible day and was so discouraged. The biggest way satan attacks me is through my thoughts and he had a hay day with my thoughts on this particular day. I was feeling very alone and like God had forgotten about me, yet again. I felt like the world was against me (dramatic, I know, but #realtalk). I felt like my family was judging me for things. I felt like the man I’m in a relationship with had issues with me that he wasn’t telling me about. I felt like the things I was doing didn’t matter whether it be at work, church, in my family, in my relationship, etc.

Lies. That’s all they were. Untrue words that had no meaning and were NOT from the Lord. But because satan had been attacking all day, I was starting to believe some of them as truth. 

It had been raining all day long and I had a 45 min. drive. I talked to my Mom on the phone for a few minutes and she tried to encourage me and rebuke the lies. I tried fighting them but I was mentally exhausted. I’d just felt off all day. As I was driving I turned on “Same God” by Elevation Worship. This song had been a lifeline earlier in the summer and I knew I needed the words from it more than ever right then as well. 

O God, my God, I need You
O God, my God, I need You now
How I need You now
O Rock, O Rock of ages
I’m standing on Your faithfulness
On Your faithfulness

You heard Your children then
You hear Your children now
You are the same God
You are the same God

You answered prayers back then
And You will answer now
You are the same God
You are the same God

You were providing then
You are providing now
You are the same God
You are the same God

You moved in power then
God, move in power now
You are the same God
You are the same God

You were a healer then
You are a healer now
You are the same God
You are the same God

You were a savior then
You are a savior now
You are the same God
You are the same God

You freed the captives then
You’re freeing hearts right now
You are the same God
You are the same God

You touched the lepers then
I feel Your touch right now
You are the same God
You are the same God

I needed Him to be the same God that He had been before. I needed a reminder of what He’d done in the past, the promise He’d given me about so many things and the faithfulness that I knew existed in Him. 

Then I saw it. 

Through the rain splattering on my windshield I looked over and saw the brightest and clearest rainbow I’ve ever seen. As soon as I saw it I smiled because I knew.

I knew it was for me.

As I drove, I sat and relished the moment and felt the Lord whispering in my ear saying, “I see you. I hear you. I haven’t forgotten about you. Rest in my promises and the peace I’ve given you. Be reminded of MY faithfulness and goodness in your life.”

I tried to get my phone to take a photo and as soon as I pulled my camera up the rainbow disappeared and I knew, without even the smallest doubt, that it was most definitely for me. He knew I needed to be reminded of those things in that moment. So with tears streaming down my face as I drove, I continued singing along.

You are the same God
You are the same God.